Nights at the Aquarium
I have been really homesick (i.e. missing the good ole college days) lately. Seems like I had everything there: good friends, good times, two steppin', alcohol by the freezer full, and no worries. Medical school is pretty much the antithesis of that. Sure there are still the good friends, good timess, and I would probably say alcohol by the room-ful, but it is certainly not worry free. Everyday is like studying as though you had a final tomorrow. Sigh. I guess I can't really complain. I know there are people out there who would trade places with me in a heartbeat. I will never forget those nights at The Aquarium though. Or belting out "Friends in Low Places" with the fiance up there. I can't wait to relive those days (September 7th, 2006: UT vs. Ohio State).
I'm really frustrated with men right now. Ever read "He's Just Not That Into You"?? It's a book by a couple of Sex & the City writers...where they tell you when a guy just doesn't like you enough. Sigh. He's told me himself, I know I deserve better, so why is it just so hard to go cold turkey? Feelings really do convolute things. I think at this stage in my life, I am really meeting people with entirely too much emotional baggage. It stinks. For a time I had no-little baggage. As dating new people ensues though....I can't help but to feel like a freight train where it just piles up.
I think we were trying to do this thing where we remain friends, and keep the doors open. Well, I can honestly say we tried it, and I am slamming it shut. I don't want to be that girl---the fallback girl. I want the guy that forgets everything in his life but me, not the guy that calls or changes whenever the girl of the moment changes. Not that he ever did that to me, but I can definitely see it happening. So, in the true spirit of remaining friends, I am saying goodbye, for now, to him. It's going to be hard. I will miss the friendship/companionship--him, but in the end this will make the friendship very possible. Investing in the future I suppose.
How wise.
"We keep dresses we will never wear again, yet we can't remain friends with an ex???" We'll see....
and yes, my closet is full of dresses that will never see the light of day again. Cheers.
I'm really frustrated with men right now. Ever read "He's Just Not That Into You"?? It's a book by a couple of Sex & the City writers...where they tell you when a guy just doesn't like you enough. Sigh. He's told me himself, I know I deserve better, so why is it just so hard to go cold turkey? Feelings really do convolute things. I think at this stage in my life, I am really meeting people with entirely too much emotional baggage. It stinks. For a time I had no-little baggage. As dating new people ensues though....I can't help but to feel like a freight train where it just piles up.
I think we were trying to do this thing where we remain friends, and keep the doors open. Well, I can honestly say we tried it, and I am slamming it shut. I don't want to be that girl---the fallback girl. I want the guy that forgets everything in his life but me, not the guy that calls or changes whenever the girl of the moment changes. Not that he ever did that to me, but I can definitely see it happening. So, in the true spirit of remaining friends, I am saying goodbye, for now, to him. It's going to be hard. I will miss the friendship/companionship--him, but in the end this will make the friendship very possible. Investing in the future I suppose.
How wise.
"We keep dresses we will never wear again, yet we can't remain friends with an ex???" We'll see....
and yes, my closet is full of dresses that will never see the light of day again. Cheers.
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