On the Radio

I wonder if this feeling will ever go away. It hasn't in six years. It's been locked away, set aside, and at sometimes, even forgotten. But with every moment together, every new memory, it resurfaces. I don't think it'll ever fade. There is a comfortability with him, an ease, and yet the same bright spark that too often diminishes with time. That feeling of liking someone forever....but not in the painful way when you know it's not quite right, or not exactly reciprocated. But in the wonderful way, that makes you giddy, and happy, and rather smitten despite the uncertainty of it all.

But life, its not that easy. Our past makes us reluctant to pave a new future. When we make mistakes, we hesitate to rise to the call of action as we have too often been taught to learn from the past. Is it worth it all? Or will we be content with never knowing?

I still don't know, what could have been or what should have been. I haven't decided whether or not to find out, or even, if I'll ever get the opportunity to.


On the Radio
This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath
-----Regina Spektor